I'm back. Been thinking of going back but well, procrastination keep winning.
until our brave hero, Midehira, summoned me back from the depth of the abyss... okay, he just pm-ed me on twitter and asked about update. And from there, I somehow got the motivation to get back. Thank you man. and guys, thank him too.
well, here's the update 1st. after that I will rant like usual lol.
Enjoy!
And rant will be updated soon.
And rant time!
1st: reason for long hiatus:
As I tell earlier if you guys remembered, I get back to university to try again getting a degree. long story short, when time to face back at my thesis (again), I got stressed like getting a writer block (again) and keep getting sick.
My parents have given me a lot help. and even finding a psychiatrist to find just what the hell is wrong inside my mind that made me this way.
Well, after telling the psychiatrist all the thing I kept inside my mind, I feel somewhat released from my depression...... until the time for the actual treatment.
The treatment is like a kind of hypno-therapy kind of treatment so I (am supposed to) get under hypnotic state before I get treated. But I don't feel being under hypnotic at all. my mind was all clear dammit! I tried to tell the psychiatrist that I am not getting enough hypnosis but the doctor just telling me to keep being relaxed and just follow her instruction and don't think too much. Well, what can I do beside obeying the doctor instruction.
and then into the treatment... the doctor actually told me to
deny, yes, to deny the side of me that been weighting me back like lazyness, being not confident, lewd, antisocial(?), etc etc. and bring out the better persona that I want to get.
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Maybe that treatment can be a success if I am not this deeply involved with the otaku world. Because denying myself... made me remember the shadow in persona series. and I somehow feeling resistant to it. I feel like I should embrace my darker self so we can go together to conquer the world or something so the suggestion for the hypno-therapy is all becoming a dud and I'm just getting back to my usual self. keep on being sickly in face of my thesis.
and finally, after entering a new semester, my father just decided that maybe getting a degree in computer is just not for me and told me to stop my college and find something else to do so I can support my own life.
my father told me to become tourist guide as I can speak 4 languages (Indonesian, Javanese, English, and Japanese) but working outside just seems to be a bother for me. I once joined a kind of Uber in my country but driving under the sun for an hour had made my body feel bad all over. so I stopped.
and yeah. I am planning to get back translating because that's the thing I can do best currently. I also slowly train my kanji reading skill and write a story by myself in qidian. but as you can guess.. the procrastination is strong. thanks to Midehira that pm-ed me in twitter that I got the motivation to trully come back here.
I also asked one of my friend to help me re-design the blog to look more simple (and to put more effective ads for more money) but well, I don't know when he will finished so I just focused myself on translating first.
Also, I got someone else who offer his help in translating CC. he already done some chapters but as I gone MIA, he also stopped working on. I feel bad for him but well... I have it coming for me. sorey again mate, I even forgot who you are.
Hmm... enough rant maybe? I just write my own novel after this.... nope... maybe giving myself a present first for finishing this quest is in order. ahoy H land!
